Sunday, 1 June 2014


even though my job is tiring and very much time consuming,  I know very much that I don't earn much for my efforts, as much as other fellas in this construction line.

but I guess the money's earned, I could feel the effort given, the time sacrificed, the pain suffered, the hardships and conflicts felt, which makes it an honest work.

i'm glad to say it's an honest work.

At this time, at this moment (1st June 2014), Look at Malaysia. Look around you.

You will feel the same tense that I feel. There is a certain tense and pressure points in Malaysia nowadays.

You can put it in any word you like. Racism. Weird politics. Hate.

Now, tell me. 

Since when in Malaysian's politics, things have to get so intensifying-ly hate-ful as it is happening now?

Then I remembered of my kittens.

You see, the orange-coloured Bubu was bitten by a cat over some fight over food. 

Since I have to hurry to work in the morning, I fed Bubu outside tthe house then speed out to work.

That fine morning, while I was locking the gate while rushing to work, I saw the intense fight.

The cat bite and hurt Bubu with its paws so that it can reach for the food I gave.

Now, is it possible that all this hate and racism in Malaysia's politics, is simply because somebody got paid for this, and that losing it all might made them lose their income?

Actually, Hishamuddin Rais ( was right. Politics is about getting into power to control resources. Economic resources. It was never about religion, race, monarchy or whatever sloganeering thrown at us. It was a struggle to control resources.

And so people become pure animalistic, fighting tooth over tooth, eye over eye with people who disagreed, over politics.

I'm glad I do not have to be an animal to earn my living.

Honesty really makes one a full human being.

New Order - Vanishing Point
Grow up children, don't you suffer
At the hands of one another
If you like a sleeping demon
Listen can you hear him weeping
Tears of joy and tears of sorrow
He buys love to sell tomorrow

My life ain't no holiday
I've been through the point of no return
I've seen what a man can do
I've seen all the hate of a woman too

Feel your heartbeat lose the rhythm
He can't touch the world we live in
Life is short but love is strong
There lies a hope that I have found
And if you try you'll find it too
Remember why I'm telling you

My life ain't no holiday
I've been through the point of no return
I've seen what a man can do
I've seen all the hate of a woman too

And they gave him away
Like in 'Whistle Down The Wind'
By the look on his face
He never gave in
This is a wonderful song and its lyrics were partially inspired by 'Whistle Down The Wind' movie, where a group of children help a thief man to escape from the police on confusing him with Jesus and he, of course, uses their innocence for getting to be free from the prison. Therefore who talks at 1st person in this lyrics is a person that is warning kids about a 'sleeping demon' (in that movie the kids saw the thief at the 1st time when he was asleep) or a man who doesn't deserve the compassion that they are used to give it to him, since he just manipulates them for getting what he needs or wants.

This one who talks at 1st person seems to have suffered a similar experience when he was a kid too, probably in the hands of his father, who treated badly his mother too. And this terrible situation just came to an end whe he grew up and found real love to his life. Then, in the second part of the lyrics, he presents love as the solution to heal the emotional hurts caused by any bad man when you were a kid.

In the last lines, the kids accidentaly release themselves from the cruel man just like in the mentioned movie, despite he has never got tired of being cruel.

circusjuggleron September 23, 2006