Sunday, 25 October 2015

Present Tense

Do you see the way that tree bends?
Does it inspire?
Leaning out to catch the sun's rays
A lesson to be applied
Are you getting something out of this all-encompassing trip?

You can spend your time alone, re-digesting past regrets,
Or you can come to terms and realize
You're the only one who can't forgive yourself,
Makes much more sense, to live in the present tense

Have you ideas on how this life ends?
Checked your hands and studied the lines
Have you the belief that the road ahead, ascends off into the light?
Seems that needlessly it's getting harder
To find an approach and a way to live
Are we getting something out of this all-encompassing trip?

You can spend your time alone re-digesting past regrets,
Or you can come to terms and realize
You're the only one who cannot forgive yourself,
Makes much more sense, to live in the present tense


*updated on 26 Oct 2015
I'm a shitty person and I made shit kindly find revised guitar tab

A very mellow song which  like. Used to play it and sing with an immense emotion, huhu.

Vladimir Putin

Putin Tells Everyone Exactly Who Created ISIS

I will be criticised by my fellow Muslim friends for posting this.

But I think Vladimir Putin is right.

Just because Russia sent its army to Syria doesn’t mean that Russia is wrong.

I ask you to consider this views and make your own assumptions.

If you read Robert Fisk’s book, The Great War of Civilisations, war is always being shrouded in religious, race labels.

But in the end, people will have the extreme gut to kill each other because of extreme hate and Profit.

In the end, Nations and People fight for politics, to increase their power for the sake of obtaining Profits.
Religion, race, are just fogs of war.

Thursday, 22 October 2015


If you follow this silly blog of mine, you will know that my English is quite silly and terrible.

Wednesday, 21 October 2015

Life today

Astaghfirulllah = seek forgiveness from God.

Even though my job scope is Project Manager, but my salary is still a meager 3k plus, which is the salary of most Project Engineers.

Sunday, 18 October 2015


I remembered on 2013 when I tendered my resignation from a project abroad and came back to Malaysia quite broken.

I didn’t start work until September 2014, and it was around those period when I started this Tumblr and Blog.

I learned about my family crisis, the divorce and the conflicts, which somehow unsettled up to this day, but I learned the truth during those period.

During the same period, I ended a relationship with special someone also.

I find solace, in reading books and re-learning things, especially mathematics.

I remembered then learning about Godel’s Incompleteness Theorem..asking people here and there how to understand what Godel try to convey.

I just find the solitude in learning simply because of this one factor.

In mathematics, there is simply logic and truth..the idea of value and logic, relieves the pain of feeling emotional.

Mathematics, physics, are somehow mechanical in nature, and in its honesty, somehow made me feel better about life.

Its clockwise precision doesn’t betrays. It is honest as it is. Unlike people.

Then there’s one thing about these mechanical knowledge that made me more open-minded, I will share you my secret.

Everybody saw about the mundane things, but there will always be someone who looks at it differently, in a different view. And that’s when improvement of knowledge happened.

For example, people knew about electric from the 1500.

But it was Benjamin Franklin, who is a businessman, who named the term “positive” and “negative” to the electrical charge.

To him, Electrical charge can be viewed in credit and debit, like in accountancy, and in nature, the charges will flow to cancel out and balance each other.

Everybody saw things falling down.

But it was Newton who viewed it different, why the apples fall down but not the moon?

Because moon has a velocity. Without Earth's gravity, the Moon will move in a straight line with its velocity.

Due to gravity, or the pulling motion towards the center of the Earth, the Moon moves elliptical to the Earth.

Hence the Newton's First Law of Motion :
 Every body persists in its state of being at rest or of moving uniformly straight forward, except insofar as it is compelled to change its state by force impressed.

Therefore, if I couldn't understand something, I have to view it differently.

If some people understand it but I don't, then I have to learn to view it from the perspective of the people which understood it.

Don't simply reject. Try to view it.

But it's normal for people to reject it outright as we people, have finite time in our life.

The shortness of our space and time sometimes forced us to only process our diminutive experience rather than learning new ones.

I write this, because I'm sickened by what's happening in my life and generally what's happening in Malaysia.

The economic power is going down,
standard of living going down,
crime rates increased as people are more oppressed to make life better.
Politics lost its good nature.

Only in reading and viewing this "academic" materials, I felt honest for life.

There's no lie in maths.

Its clockwork precision is brutally honest.

Wednesday, 14 October 2015

Nihilism / Friedrich Nietzsche

I don't say this is the truth.

I just feel, to seek understanding, you might view worlds under different glasses.

You might be absorbed with the colours,

You might be absorbed with the reflection and the luminiscence,

But wonder,

Why the definition of truth varies under different glasses.

Mathematics behind NSA controversy

To understand more, you can read this. 

Edward Snowden 

And this video below is to understand a little bit about cracking cyrptography

Safe Cracking With Feynmann

Thursday, 8 October 2015


Beginning in 2008, additional countries joined the discussion for a broader agreement: Australia, Canada, Japan, Malaysia, Mexico, Peru, the United States, and Vietnam, bringing the total number of participating countries in the negotiations to twelve. Participating nations set the goal of completing negotiations in 2012, but contentious issues such as agriculture, intellectual property, and services and investments caused negotiations to continue for significantly longer.[7] They finally reached agreement on 5 October 2015.[8] I
- Wikipedia