Yelling with my mouth shut

Aku tulis dalam malay kali ni.

1. tajuk entry ni, dari chorus lagu "A Small Victory" from Faith No More.

2. lately, aku rasa aku byk buang masa commenting, dlm cursingmalay.blogspot.com, dlm Facebook, page Dr. MAZA la and others. Actually, aku sendiri rasa "anjing menyalak bukit", because in the end, no physical thing will happen out of it.

3. But then, the impulse is maybe because, aku sakit sangat tengok what happens in Malaysia, socio-economic-politic-religion and so on. Issues yg tak mungkin jadi kalau people involved guna otak. Hearing/reading that issue itself insult people's intelligence.

4. Kalau nak tahu, before this, education system kita based on English, dan dulu ada MCE, tapi MCE ni ditukar kepada SPM pada 1980. Ramai orang masa tu mempertikaikan the change, orang tak puas hati (mostly Non-Malays) byk lari dan imigrate ke luar negara, dan jadi brain-drain sampai hari ini.

5. We Malaysian people regardless of race, are actually more intelligent than other nations, even japan, sbb Malaysians are "open", due to racial mix di Malaysia. Dan untuk mix, kau kena tahu lebih dari satu bahasa, for example, most Chinese kuasai 3 language, (Mandarin and each dialect, Malay and English), so level pemikiran pun jauh lebih better. Tapi sbb politics, yes politics, itu yg memundurkan Malay yang hanya mahu kuasai single bahasa dengan penuh degil, and it's one of the reasons Malay's mind level is never better than the non-malays (Bahasa jiwa bangsa maa, kuasai banyak bahasa, jiwa kau lebih open).

Malays yg hebat2 banyak terdiri dari golongan old-school yg English educated, atau golongan bandar (atau golongan yg dah migrate ke bandar) yang banyak mix dgn semua race.

6. So far, based on experience, aku dapati mmg malaysian breed ni disukai ramai org dari pelbagai negara for hiring sbb level of intelligence, hardwork, skill is highly respected. Dan aku pernah kerja di Bintulu, Sarawak, dan aku tahu level pemikiran org Sarawak/Sabah is much more open dari Semenanjung, that's why geng2 ni byk kerja line2 technical hebat sbb mereka boleh absorb cepat knowledge/idea.

Nevertheless, aku tahu juga, mereka ada resentment dekat org2 Semenanjung, sbb development tak equal. Mmg nampak sangat.

7. Nevertheless, the situation in Malaysia can be summarised as,  people of all races with potential to become intelligent are being dumbed down due to politics. Dan itu yg drive impulse aku untuk menjerit2 di ruang komen atau Facebook, walaupun itu satu tindakan yg bodoh sbb nothing will come out from it.

8. Dalam Malaysia yg hopeless, aku hanya mampu change apa yg aku boleh change, dan aku pula mmg jenis "kalau aku buat, aku akan pastikan jadi". Kalau tak jadi, maknanya aku mmg malas nak buat benda tu.

9. Di depan rumah aku, across the small road, area yg aku describe here as my front yard, banyak cilaka dah buang sampah2 bukan. And so bila aku balik rumah kali ni, lepas resign, aku settlekan kecilakaan di front yard tu.

10. What I did is, first, aku pungut sebanyak mana sampah di front yard tu dan masukkan dlm plastik bag hitam. Within 1 hour, aku dah kumpul 4 plastik bag besar (sial byk sampah!). Then aku dump kan aje di front yard utk bagi jiran2 tengok. Then, i park my car beside the dumpings to prevent any assholes from buang sampah there or interfering with the land.

11. The next day, both my left side and right side neighbour (rumah teres) keluar survey2 area di situ. Ngam2 time mereka keluar, aku bawak cangkul and some benih and buat kerja bertani kat front yard. Depan mata mereka. Then aku bawak motor aku (kereta still park outside beside the dumpings), dan beli 2 pokok rambutan yg baru nak tumbuh setinggi 2 ft and plant it at that area.

12. Lepas 2-3 hari, tiap2 hari aku keluar dan survey area tu sambil siram2 pokok dgn muka garang. Eventually org dah mula tak berani nak buang sampah di situ.

13. Then both jiran started warming up and chatting, tanya pasal kerja and so forth, time aku duk bertani tu. Entah macam mana, timbul issue longkang sumbat.

13a. Uncle Malay sebelah rumah aku bising2 longkang sumbat, dan marah2 Municipality Kajang sbb tak take action, then started talking politics, Malay power, UMNO, etc.

14. At that instance, aku terus ambil cangkul, melompat masuk ke dalam longkang  and shove all the shit up. Dan selamba buang sampah2 tu sebelah pokok uncle Malay sebelah rumah. By then, aku buat muka garang dan terus mencangkul.

15. What happens then, tiba2 chinese neighbours dari one of the houses tu datang menolong. The malay uncle senyap2 masuk dalam rumah. (ceh!), and after 10 minutes,  a few Chinese neighbours came and helped. Siap panggil 2 indon datang sekali. (aku suspek diorang upah indon yg tgh buat keje renovation at one of the houses)

16. What happen that day, we managed to clean half of the sewerage drain at Jalan 12, Taman Bukit Mewah Phase 1, 43000 Kajang, lagi halfway kami tak usik pasal ours is downstream, air mengalir towards our houses drain and straight to main sewerage drain. lagi halfway tu pandai2 la org2 sana korek. (mostly org melayu sana hahhaha).

17. In the evening, hujan lebat for few hours. After raining, aku boleh nampak longkang yg clear, bau busuk dah kurang.

17a. I learnt a lot that day. Uncle Malay sebelah rumah for half a year duk bising2 pasal municipality Kajang tak bersihkan longkang, and yet aku, dgn my Chinese neighbours, selamba bersihkan. I knew the Chinese neighbours pun harbours sentiment tak puas hati gak longkang berbau, tapi bila dia tgk their own Chinese pun dtg tolong aku time tu, diorang pun dtg join skali. So consider myself lucky je la.

18. Then 4 plastik sampah tu aku dump dekat tempat usual, di belakang rumah. Then something shit happen.

19. For two bloody weeks, none of the garbages are collected. And there are now 7 stinking black plastic bag full of garbage and shit di belakang rumah aku.

20. What I did is a ruckus. Aku bwk kereta aku, dump all the 7 stinking black plastic bag in my car (tgh puasa ni), drove to the Kajang Municipality Office, found out no guard is guarding the entrance, went it, and dump all the bags at the refuse place inside their parking space area.

21. Honestly, just nice dekat tempat refuse tu, ada jeep MPKj and aku ada intent nak letak plastik tu atas that MPKj vehicle, took a photo and put it in Facebook. tapi mungkin time tu puasa, so I did not do it, just campak je sampah kat tempat sampah di situ.

22. Nevertheless, I made a ruckus, took some photo,  then complaint facebook to MPKj, Menteri Besar Khalid Ibrahim, and email it to MPKj, MB Khalid, TV3, TV1, NTV7 and even to jabatan perdana menteri.

23. It was stupid impulse rage, but frustration drives it, because I want something to be done and yes, I did something about it no matter how stupid, I want something to be done.

24. And yesterday morning 16 July 2013, the MPKj rep came to my house. (after a week), they apologised and assured things will be taken care of.

25. Actually by now, I don't care whether MPKj come to collect my garbage or not, because after the incident, aku dah mula dump all my garbage at a refuse chute behind Pasar Kajang. I did it twice weekly now, so that beg sampah tak besar sgt, aku naik motor je hantar.

26. After this incident, aku rasa, whatever change, how small and how stupid, is still a change. Dan aku rasa proud getting it done my ownself. It's stupid, but at least for me, I know something is done about it, and aku tak depend and wait for others to clean my shit.

27. About this blog, is more or less about getting something done. I got some idea in my head, no matter how Einstein that idea is, if it's not written, then it's the same value as the 7 stinking plastic bag behind my house. It's not done.

28. And so, writing it down is making sure it is embedded somewhere.

29.   but sometimes, when comes to the part of reading back my writings, aku selalu fikir, kalau aku mati besok, macam mana eh?

30. Henceforth, aku banyak edit dan mendelete postings aku, whether here, in other people's commenting area or in facebook.(for example, previous article Ghost In the shell tu, aku dah mula delete certain part yg aku rasa bodoh)

31. Sbb aku x mahu dililhat sebagai bodoh. Takda sapa pun mahu diingati sebagai satu kebodohan. Tapi in the same time, ada impulse utk yelling with my mouth shut.

32. Reason writing in English?, because I write and think in the mixes of Malay/English, and so to make sure I damn bloody edited the whole writing, I try to discipline myself and ensure that the finished product shall be 100% English. If you found my writing in 100% English, it means I edited the writings at least once.