Writing is fictional. It is inspired by the recent case in Malaysia, where a husband beat her wife in front of their kids, inside a lift, the scenes were recorded by the security camera.
Dear God is the Most Perfect and Most Beautiful.
C.K. Lim called herself Adeline, during her Form 6 schooldays.
Chinese people usually have a English/Roman name, during their teen years.
Before Form 6, Adeline didn’t really socialise much, especially with boys, given that she studied at all-girls Convent School at Kajang.
She studied Form 6 at Kajang High School, where boys and girls mixed together in the classroom.
Her best friend there was Devi, an Indian girl, and a free-hair non-tudung Malay girl with the name of Newrene.
Devi, or Miss D as she’s used to be called, had those big eyes which bring warmth to Adeline and Newrene whenever they met. That natural smile of Miss D, her talkativeness (and sometimes quite annoying too :) ) is all that matters to their friendship. They felt beautiful among her presence, like red roses which sparkles the gardens of orchids and crysanthemum flowers nearby
One day, Miss D didn’t came to school. It was a week after that when Adeline and Newrene knew exactly what happened.
They never knew before this, that, Miss D’s warmth was a product of her alcoholic father who likes to beat Miss D’s mom, whenever he lost money to alcohol and other manly adventures. They never knew before this, that, Miss D smiles to them because she could hardly smiles at home.
And when Miss D finally “spoken” that day, she was all alone.
The daily news reported an 18 year old Indian girl who hanged herself at home.
Adeline and Newrene cuddled themselves, after knowing the whole truth.
Adeline felt what Miss D felt. Totally.
It’s because she herself saw the same thing inside her home. Her father ain’t alcoholic though, just that he is the same like Miss D’s father, were addicted to chaos. Gambling is addictive.
Newrene felt the loss quite a different way, distrusting man, as she knew her father likes to have affairs.
————— end of Part 1———————-
Adeline came back from work today feeling tired and emotionless.
She felt devastated today when a colleague grabbed her butt and then smiles. It was purely pathetic and sickening.
She didn’t feel appreciated at her job. Somehow, she knew, guys in the office, and guys who sees her when she went back to her house, just look at her as some pretty object with no brains.
There were no respect and no love. Just pure lust.
She cooked noodles, then after a nice meal, she went to the bathroom.
She turns on the water heater, let the water sprinkled to her body and just sat there motionless.
"God, or anyone up there, I pray to you, please let this tears flow together with this warm water out from me. Please."
The icicles at her eyes melt and flows.
Dear God is the Most Perfect and Most Beautiful.
After that “hot water session” in the bathroom, she puts on her best dress.
She groomed herself nicely.
She didn’t over-dress and over make-up. It was simple touch here and there.
And she looked at her mirror. “Thank you God, I feel beautiful”.
Newrene contacted her for a dinner get-together.
Adeline sensed something’s wrong when Newrene asked to go to the most expensive restaurant they both knew.
Adeline then spends nearly half an hour choosing the best shoes for this. She didn’t want to look pretentious, she didn’t want to look cheap, the shoes must match her leopard-skin pattern skirt.
Realising she might be late, she rushes back to her room, to that big mirror.
"Oh thank god, it match!" as she smiles frantically.
————— end of Part 2———————-
At the restaurant, Adeline looked with amazement at Newrene.
She felt a little bit jealous at Newrene’s bobby-cut hair look. Especially when the pearl earrings shines Newrene’s neck.
"Damn me for my long hair" Adeline felt.
But Adeline felt better when Newrene commented about her long flawless hair.
"You went to saloon before coming here, is it?", Newrene asked with anticipation as she herself wanted to know the best saloon in KL, which she suspected Adeline frequently goes to.
They chatted, had warm drinks. At first, Adeline wanted to order some wine to loosen up and feel beautiful, but she didn’t want to feel sober on the morningafter.
She learned about Newrene’s hubby who’s having an affair with an older woman.
They felt sad and thought of Miss D.
Adeline : I miss her terribly…I really do
Newrene : Miss D, her big eyes and her smiles. My god, really. Hey you know what?
Adeline : what is it?
Newrene : You got the same big eyes and same pretty smiles as her’s.
They smiled at each other, solemnly.
Dear God is the Most Perfect and Most Beautiful.
There’s a reason why God made people wanting to be beautiful. The feeling of loving yourself for who you are is something much more beautiful than expecting others to love you.
End of story.
Round Table feat. Nino - Beautiful
English Translation
Before I close my eyes, inside my dream, I’m starting to melt the scenery
That seems like I’ve it seen before and the distant memory I recall just a little
I try to follow the path I walked with you before on my way
I’ll surely understand that the starry sky is an eternal vow
On such a day when you just call my name
And someone will surely locate you,
I know beautiful one day
Shining
I don’t want to be left behind
Why do I feel so alone
No matter what day it is, don’t forget that gentle feelings will visit
By just softly mumbling a love song that you start to whisper
Tell me why, if I’m with you, even if we’re separated, we can understand each other
Stretching our hands underneath the endless starry sky
A shooting shiny star is spreading
Its beginning is always at this place
When I look into your eyes
Near you
'Cause I just want you to be by my side
Make me smile night and day
On such a day when you just call my name
And someone will surely locate you,
I know beautiful one day
Shining
I don’t want to be left behind
Why do I feel so alone
A shooting shiny star is spreading
Its beginning is always at this place
When I look into your eyes
Near you
'Cause I just want you to be by my side
Make me smile night and day